Figured I'd go into a little more depth about me and Kelly...
She moved in next door the summer before my sophomore year of high school, she was gonna be a freshman that year. Me and my sister were the first 2 people here she had met, and tbch, we didn't really like each other at first. She thought I was a douche and I thought she was annoying.
After we spent more time together, we started to like each other as friends and so on. Unlike most people I knew, she actually cared about me. And unlike most the people she met, I kept to myself, I didn't really speak about me or my past any. Not that I have a bad past, I just didn't really like to share certain things with total strangers. Which is why I haven't posted my birthday anywhere, I did recently put it on my profile, so you guyz can wait til it rolls around or an admin can go look at it and see it.
My junior year(her sophomore), second semester, we finally date, and while me and her are dating, she starts dating my ex Jennifer. Me and Kelly dated for 3 days, then she broke up with me. She was having a pretty hectic home life and she needed to just focus on her and home at the time. Bout 4 months later, summer rolls around and we're hanging out a lot, she's dating some guy named Spencer(who was cheating on his gf with Kelly) and she knew that, but it was ok cuz she was cheating on him with me. After awhile she makes him choose between her and Autumn(the girl he was cheating on) and he chooses her. She broke up with him for that thinking, "If he's so willing to break up with a girl for me, who's to say he won't do that to me?" I ended up putting that thought in her head, but that's beside the point. After they break up, we're still acting like we're dating, but we technically aren't, and a week before my birthday, she asks me out.
Less than a week before school starts back up, we do a stupid thing. We sneak out of our houses to see each other. While we're hanging out, her baby sister wakes up and starts crying and it woke her mom up, and she went in Kelly's room to see what was going on, cuz her mom is a lazy abusive bitch and makes Kelly take care of the kid. Her mom calls her boyfriend, Reggie, and he comes home and checks their backyard, we sneak more into my backyard and wait awhile. At about 2 am, we lay on the ground and go to sleep, her laying on me in my arms(one of my favorite memories) and it starts to drizzle, I wake up around 3 and say, "My window is still unlocked, wanna go inside and get out of the cold and rain?" She says yes and in we go, we lay in my bed, and go back to sleep(we didn't have sex, just throwing that out there). She stays in my room until 5 pm that day cuz my sister caught us, and we decided that we couldn't get out of this. The cops were involved and everything. We walk outside and talk to some detectives and tell the story. I have no clue what-so-ever what she told the detective, but I told him exactly what happened. After that, she broke up with me cuz she felt like everything between me and her was lost cuz of that one night.
School starts back up and we go on with our lives, she starts dating some guy named Conor(cool dude) and I'm still single. She breaks up with Conor, I'm still single. I start dating this girl named Haley, Kelly's still single. Shortly afterwards tho, she starts dating someone named Travis. About a month later, he breaks up with her cuz he wanted her to date this guy named Justin(everyone called him Marine) cuz he thought Marine could make her happier than he could. Well, her and Marine do something stupid and he cut ties with her, I'm still dating Haley. After a couple weeks, she starts dating this girl named Sara, this is the beginning of December. Christmas break rolls around and 2 days before school starts back up, me and Kelly kiss and felt really bad about it cuz it technically was cheating. We both decided it would be better to tell who we were dating, so we did...sorta. I never got to tell Haley, she forced it out of Kelly before I had a chance to tell her, the day before school, Haley broke up with me. Kelly told Sara when school started back up and Sara(while hurt) said, "It's ok, we can still make it." Kelly then broke up with Sara cuz she lost the feelings for her(they were probably overshadowed by the ones for me...). We still thought it best if we didn't date again, so I remained single for about a week, then Haley told me that she made a huge mistake and that losing me hurt more than me cheating on her. So we got back together. About a week later, she starts dating this girl named Amber while dating me, she did this in November as well, and I didn't exactly like it cuz she didn't ask me if I was ok with it. To me, that showed a lack of respect, but she was happy so I overlooked it. This second time, I couldn't, so I broke up with her.
About a week later, I dated this girl named Meghan(pronounced like Megan) and after roughly a week, I break up with her. I wanted Kelly back too badly. I had even gotten her a Valentine's Day gift and asked her back out the Friday before Valentine's Day(it was on a Sunday). But while me and Meghan were dating, she was chasing my cousin Matt, about a day before I asked her out, she said she would rather be with me. But I was spending the weekend with Matt and his brother John at my grandmother's house, and she was texting him and said, "Right now I'm with a guy I'm only with cuz I didn't want to hurt him." I had already told him that me and Kelly were back together, cuz for some reason, my relationships always come up. And he was telling me what she was saying cuz to him(and me) blood is thicker than water. So I tell her what I think about what she's saying, and she just tells Matt that she's enjoying this cuz she made me mad, and she enjoys making people mad. Well, when I'm told that, I said I hated her, and wanted nothing to do with her(that was the anger speaking). She had a friend over that weekend too, and she spent the whole night listening to one song on my mp3 player, Kiss by Korn, holding the bear I got her for Valentine's Day, crying the whole night. The next day, she texted me and said that we needed to talk, and I agreed cuz I felt like shit for what I said. We talked it over and we stayed together, cuz I never said that I was breaking up with her.
About 3 days pass and she writes me a note, I misread the note and thought that she had said that she was in it to make me happy. I said, "Don't be in a relationship cuz it makes me happy, be in it cuz it makes you happy." She misunderstood that and thought I meant break up with me(cuz what I said there was a little more to) and so she did. We talked about this and realized that we both made a mistake, but we didn't immediately go back out, she wasn't sure if she wanted to be in a relationship with me at the time. But on February 28th, she asks me back out, and we last for over 3 months. I have NO complaints what-so-ever about that time I spent with her, and on May 14th, I propose to her. We were serious about it too, we had it planned out and everything. We were gonna wait til she was done with college and after we both had a job to actually pay for the wedding. But around a month after I proposed to her, we do the same stupid thing we did the previous year, and got caught in a similar fashion. Her baby sister woke up again, Reggie was called, this time we were in her yard, so she went back inside and got caught by her mom, I managed to get back inside my house but I saw someone outside and assumed I got caught by my dad, so I said to myself, "If he's outside, then he's checked everywhere in the house, I don't have a lie to tell to get myself out of this." So I go outside, and find out it wasn't my dad, it was Reggie. I had thought that he went inside when Kelly's mom told him that she came back in. I confessed what we did since there was no way out. And now me and Kelly can't speak AT ALL. I'm not allowed to speak to her til she's 18 so her parents can't really do anything to me. And she's not allowed to speak to me til she graduates. If she ever dates me again, her family disowns her, that's how much they hate me.
We didn't exactly follow those rules, and started dating off and on since. But like I said in my story, I eventually told her I cheated on her and now I've lost my chances with her... She's now dating some guy named Dee, and I'm dating Christeena. We miss each other like crazy, but we know we just won't work so we stay away.
I still love her, and I always will. Christeena knows about a good majority of this already, there were some things I didn't tell her, but I told her the important parts. There's some that I didn't tell you guys cuz it's staying between me and Kelly, me and Christeena, and me and the people I tell my problems to who aren't Kelly and Christeena.
I plan on using all of today as a day to tell you guys reasons I go emo. That way if you guys catch me being all depressed, you'll have an idea why.